Tuesday, May 15, 2012
How to be a mommy??
So, it was mothers day a few days ago and it really got me thinking. How do most people learn to be the mommies that they want to be? I would think usually by watching and learning from their own mommies. The problem with me is that I never really had a mommy growing up. My family is quite crazy and I never had that role model. I think it is interesting that all I have ever wanted was to be a mommy. When I was little I actually put my baby dolls under my shirt, so I could be "pregnant"! LOL Maybe since I wanted a mommy so badly at that point, as I am sure all little girls do, I craved being the perfect little mommy myself. The problem is now that I am all grown up and have REAL kids and not baby dolls anymore, and my kids have REAL problems and REAL attitudes. I have a hard time figuring out how to deal with motherhood sometimes, I have always wanted to be the perfect mommy and the days when my kids are driving me crazy and stomping on my last nerve I find myself yelling like a crazy person, and that is not the mommy I wanted to be. It makes me feel so guilty and horrible. All I can do is strive to be a better mommy that I really do want to be. But my question is, when you have had NO role models (except for June Cleaver mommies on TV) then what do you do, how do figure this mommy thing out. That is my struggle, I want it, but don't know how to achieve it. Maybe some of these real life super mommies need to write a how to manual???