So, my oldest son, Zeke is about to graduate and I find myself looking back over his life. He was my first baby, I loved him instantly and in many ways he saved me. But yesterday as I was watching my sweet boy walking to school, so quiet with his head down, I felt such guilt over not being a better mom. I have always suffered with depression and some anxiety and lets face it, I am not patient AT ALL. I know all moms out there have felt this dreaded mommy guilt. In many ways he has grown to be so much better than me and more mature, I am truley thankful for that. Although as a teenager we butt heads at times , he is a great kid and I am so proud of him. It going to be hard to let go and learn to be a mom of an adult. But most of all getting rid of this mommy guilt!