Thursday, May 31, 2012

15 years...oh my

So, today is my 15 year wedding anniversary! Wow, that is a long time. I think back to that day 15 years ago (which really does not seem that long ago). I was surrounded by friends getting our hair done and Dennis was getting ready at our house, and from what I heard drinking cup after cup of coffee and getting as jittery as anyone could.  We had a sweet and simple ceremony at he Eastland church of Christ. The thing I remember most about our wedding and our vows was the fact that the preacher added my son in the vows, that it wasnt just Dennis and I, but that we were becoming a family. I loved that!  I am not normally a very sappy person, but that made me tear up.  Dennis has been a wonderful husband (much more than I deserve) and a wonderful father.  We have had our struggles along the way, but who dosent.  We have dealt with infertility, money issues at times, we have been through some very scary and serious medical issues, and becoming foster parents, having our hearts broken in that process and healed again.  We are helping a great friend raise his son and have adopted the most beautiful, nuttiest little girl in the world and of course there is "Zeke", my biological son that Dennis adopted when he was 4.  Looking back over it, there has been alot packed into that 15 years. We have been very blessed. I cant wait to see what the next  15 years holds for us!

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Little known facts about my husband

It is almost my 15 year anniversay, so I thought it might be fun to add some little known fun facts about my husband.
#1  and I happen to think the most interesting is that he says that he knew the minute he met me that we would get married.  It took me a little longer to see that.
#2  He hates macaronni and cheese, I happen to think this completely insane, who can hate mac n cheese?
#3  He is very smart...almost too smart.  This has surprised some people , I guess because he works in the oil field, but he loves to work outdoors, so thats what he does.
#4  He use to draw and was quite the artist, but refuses to do so now...:(
#5  He is very old fashioned and misses the "good old days" when things were simpler and according to him movies were much better.
#6  He is wayyyy more patient than me and has the biggest heart of anyone I have ever met.
#7  He is a great cook and makes the BEST fried chicken in the whole world.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

How to be a mommy??

So, it was mothers day a few days ago and it really got me thinking.  How do most people learn to be the mommies that they want to be? I would think usually by watching and learning from their own mommies.  The problem with me is that I never really had a mommy growing up.  My family is quite crazy and I never had that role model.  I think it is interesting that all I have ever wanted was to be a mommy. When I was little I actually put my baby dolls under my shirt, so I could be "pregnant"! LOL   Maybe since I wanted a mommy so badly at that point, as I am sure all little girls do,  I craved being the perfect little mommy myself.  The problem is now that I am all grown up and have REAL kids and not baby dolls anymore, and my kids have REAL problems and REAL attitudes.  I have a hard time figuring out how to deal with motherhood sometimes,  I have always wanted to be the perfect mommy and the days when my kids are driving me crazy and stomping on my last nerve I find myself yelling like a crazy person, and that is not the mommy I wanted to be. It makes me feel so guilty and horrible.  All I can do is strive to be a better mommy that I really do want to be. But my question is, when you have had NO role models (except for June Cleaver mommies on TV) then what do you do, how do figure this mommy thing out.  That is my struggle, I want it, but don't know how to achieve it.  Maybe some of these real life super mommies need to write a how to manual???

Thursday, May 10, 2012

"The Call"......or not

So, as you all know I am a foster parent, hoping to adopt again and waiting for that scary, yet oh so exciting call about a baby. Well it happened today, we got a call about a 2 day old baby girl.  I was so excited, I immediately of course said YES!!!  So then I start thinking about where I will put the baby and all of the little baby things I will need, and how Miss Priss will deal with a new little bundle in the house. That excitement lasted for about an hour until I found out they picked another family.  I was so heartbroken over this sweet baby girl that I haven't even seen.  I know I just need to put it in Gods hands and that he will bring the right baby for us our way, but sometimes that can be so hard to remember.  Being a foster parent can be such a roller coaster, but can be such a beautiful experience.  This is national foster parent month and I encourage all of you if you have it in your hearts to learn more about it and help a child!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

A Day In the life of a Hot Mess Circus clown!

 Ok, so recently I have decided to do a fake spray tan and it was looking pretty good up until the 3rd time.  I woke up this morning to find HUGE streaks on my was BAD.  Not only that, but last night I decided I was going to dye my hair, I was tired of the blonde and decided to go darker...welllll my hair is now black. So now picture this, I have blotchy fake tan skin, black hair and blotches of hair dye on me.....UGH  I do not know why I do these things.  Maybe its because my oldest, Zeke is going to prom tonight and I am feeling a bit old???  So now I am hoping my hair will quickly lighten up a bit and that I can get my husband to help even out this horrible tan......Oh the things we women do! 
P.S.  I would post pics.....but um yeah thats just NOT going to happen!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Confessions of a stay at home mommy

All I have ever wanted was to be a stay at home mom. I had visions of all of this sweet mommy stuff, doing arts and crafts and teaching my kids, taking them to the park. Well I have realized its just not like that, for me anyway.  It actually can be quite boring and depressing at times.  I really need to find a hobby, something for myself.  I get overwhelmed just being a "mommy" all day.  I would like to be better at it, everyone I know has their "super mom" that they look up to, I am wondering what the super moms day is really like.  How do they seem to do everything so perfectly?