Little known facts about my husband

It is almost my 15 year anniversay, so I thought it might be fun to add some little known fun facts about my husband.
#1  and I happen to think the most interesting is that he says that he knew the minute he met me that we would get married.  It took me a little longer to see that.
#2  He hates macaronni and cheese, I happen to think this completely insane, who can hate mac n cheese?
#3  He is very smart...almost too smart.  This has surprised some people , I guess because he works in the oil field, but he loves to work outdoors, so thats what he does.
#4  He use to draw and was quite the artist, but refuses to do so now...:(

#5  He is very old fashioned and misses the "good old days" when things were simpler and according to him movies were much better.
#6  He is wayyyy more patient than me and has the biggest heart of anyone I have ever met.
#7  He is a great cook and makes the BEST fried chicken in the whole world.

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 MY LOVES! <3

How to be a mommy??

So, it was mothers day a few days ago and it really got me thinking.  How do most people learn to be the mommies that they want to be? I would think usually by watching and learning from their own mommies.  The problem with me is that I never really had a mommy growing up.  My family is quite crazy and I never had that role model.  I think it is interesting that all I have ever wanted was to be a mommy. When I was little I actually put my baby dolls under my shirt, so I could be "pregnant"! LOL   Maybe since I wanted a mommy so badly at that point, as I am sure all little girls do,  I craved being the perfect little mommy myself.  The problem is now that I am all grown up and have REAL kids and not baby dolls anymore, and my kids have REAL problems and REAL attitudes.  I have a hard time figuring out how to deal with motherhood sometimes,  I have always wanted to be the perfect mommy and the days when my kids are driving me crazy and stomping on my last nerve I find myself yelling like a crazy person, and that is not the mommy I wanted to be. It makes me feel so guilty and horrible.  All I can do is strive to be a better mommy that I really do want to be. But my question is, when you have had NO role models (except for June Cleaver mommies on TV) then what do you do, how do figure this mommy thing out.  That is my struggle, I want it, but don't know how to achieve it.  Maybe some of these real life super mommies need to write a how to manual???

"The Call"......or not

So, as you all know I am a foster parent, hoping to adopt again and waiting for that scary, yet oh so exciting call about a baby. Well it happened today, we got a call about a 2 day old baby girl.  I was so excited, I immediately of course said YES!!!  So then I start thinking about where I will put the baby and all of the little baby things I will need, and how Miss Priss will deal with a new little bundle in the house. That excitement lasted for about an hour until I found out they picked another family.  I was so heartbroken over this sweet baby girl that I haven't even seen.  I know I just need to put it in Gods hands and that he will bring the right baby for us our way, but sometimes that can be so hard to remember.  Being a foster parent can be such a roller coaster, but can be such a beautiful experience.  This is national foster parent month and I encourage all of you if you have it in your hearts to learn more about it and help a child!

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A Day In the life of a Hot Mess Circus clown!

 Ok, so recently I have decided to do a fake spray tan and it was looking pretty good up until the 3rd time.  I woke up this morning to find HUGE streaks on my arm....it was BAD.  Not only that, but last night I decided I was going to dye my hair, I was tired of the blonde and decided to go darker...welllll my hair is now black. So now picture this, I have blotchy fake tan skin, black hair and blotches of hair dye on me.....UGH  I do not know why I do these things.  Maybe its because my oldest, Zeke is going to prom tonight and I am feeling a bit old???  So now I am hoping my hair will quickly lighten up a bit and that I can get my husband to help even out this horrible tan......Oh the things we women do! 
P.S.  I would post pics.....but um yeah thats just NOT going to happen!

Confessions of a stay at home mommy

All I have ever wanted was to be a stay at home mom. I had visions of all of this sweet mommy stuff, doing arts and crafts and teaching my kids, taking them to the park. Well I have realized its just not like that, for me anyway.  It actually can be quite boring and depressing at times.  I really need to find a hobby, something for myself.  I get overwhelmed just being a "mommy" all day.  I would like to be better at it, everyone I know has their "super mom" that they look up to, I am wondering what the super moms day is really like.  How do they seem to do everything so perfectly?